statement 2

The work, "Examination of Conscience," was conceived in the fall of 2009. After moving to Portland, Oregon I came across a few old diaries I had kept in high school. Upon reading these once important moments, I began to consider them in the spectrum of my life. While they were long past and forgotten, reading through my intimate thoughts, made me quite uncomfortable. My first instinct was to instantly start a fire and burn them, my second, to read them in front of a camera. These feelings that were only ever shared with a pen and paper, needed to be verbally spoken and shared. Sitting in my empty living room on my golden yellow chair, I began performing for an unknown audience. Deeply inspired by story telling and the act of confessing in church, I saw these performances as a way to reconstruct my past. Having never mastered a functional relationship, I wondered if the consolation I was looking for might be found in these forgotten diaries.

statement

in any relationship, you have to give something of yourself to the other person. this is scary. pardon my stuttering, crying, anxiousness. i have never done this before. and when i look into your eyes, i know you are judging me. wondering the same things about me that i am wondering about you. but the key is trust. i can trust you, if you can trust me.